I am a Survivor. With a big ol’ capital S. Why the big S? Because being a Survivor requires the acknowledgment of something stronger than just a name or description. It’s not who I am totally, but a big portion of my heart, soul and body. - Shani Kenny 2015

Sunday, December 20, 2015

We're all a little mad here.....

We’re all effed up. We all have extreme issues in one way or another. Some just even a small amount of things. But we’re all human. We all deal with shit in our own way. We all use different outlets to express our frustration, sadness and rage over it all. For people like me, posting random crazy BS to my FB wall, or ranting, help. I also delve into PSP regularly to work on many things at once. The reason for it is, it gives me some peace. It’s calming and soothing. I have OCD tendencies with my PTSD and it’s soothing. I’m a traditional ritualist. Things have to be done in a certain way. So for me, that’s one of the things that help. Writing helps, griping, bitching, t.v. binge watching, movies of course, music and books. All those things help.

The thing that gets me, is when people freaking bitch about how someone spends their time on social media. Look, I’m a FB junkie like most. I love reading up on what my friends are doing, posting random, shameless posts about my family and just crazy shit. Here’s what I think.. STOP FREAKING BITCHING! When I log into FB, I use MY email address I’ve had for 15 years, MY password. When I look at my page, it says, “Shani Kenny (Scrapping Yoda/Neenja Master)” at the top. I see the profile pic and cover that I CHOSE! I post wtf I want to. Anybody who knows me well, knows I post just about ANYTHING. FFS I even post about how smelly my family is! You know what? It’s MY choice.  Nobody else can tell me what I can and cannot post. I mean for real? Who made anyone the social media police? It’s MY page, so I’ll post WTF I WANT! Do I bitch about my health? Fack yeah I do! Why? Because I’m human. Because  it’s a release. It’s a point to put out there what I’m dealing with and sometimes get ideas of how to deal with it from friends. And what else? ZOMG….. HELP! SUPPORT! UNDERSTANDING! LOVE! All from my family and friends. It’s called SOCIAL MEDIA for a reason FFS. Dude, really? Who stood up next to some ridiculous asshole and deemed you the facking post police? You get paid for that shit? If you are, then that’s a waste.

I am BEYOND furious with stupidity of others right now. How dare anyone else say shit about someone else posting about their health? Yup, I realize it’s YOUR page…so I respect that, to a point. But if you’re going to post something like that, grow the fack up and be bold enough to post the name of who you’re talking about. FFS, is this middle school? Are we 12 again? I mean I know my inner child is stuck at 12 and I’m 38, but even I can see the stupidity in keeping it “quiet”. I’m not guiltless of this in the past. I’ve done it too…but I’ve faced a whole lot of BS and grown the fack up and faced my own stupidity face on and had to atone for said stupidity. So let’s be real shall we? If you can shout how it’s your page and you can say what you want and demand respect for that, do the same. Respect the fact that someone needs an outlet to pour out their own pain and frustrations. You may claim you know someone’s health history but that’s BS. You have no idea how hard it is on anyone and how they struggle. Last I checked, you’re still wearing your own shoes. So unless you’re prepared to remove your stinky, pathetic shoes and step into someone else’s, give it a rest.
I dare ANYONE to take a step into my raggedy ass high tops with the mismatched laces and take a few steps in my world. I guarantee you, it’s not an easy world to be in. For real. Just as much as I probably wouldn’t last in your shoes. I don’t want t hem.

I’m going to say this; I don’t stand for this kind of BS. We have our own ways of dealing with things. Respect it, or walk away. There is the really awesome miracle on all social media that allows you to un-follow or unfriend someone. ZOMG! FOR REAL THOUGH! You don’t like it, change it. Remove the persons account from yours. Instead of making passive aggressive comments just say it and get it over with. Especially if it’s someone you’re supposed to be “friends with” I mean when someone says shit, there will always be someone who screen shots it and sends it to someone else. FFS, I’ve seen that a lot in the PSP community. It’s how it is. It doesn’t make it right.  Honestly, it would be less hurtful if you were just up front about it. Don’t pretend to like someone when you’re just hanging around to gather shit to spew. Try a breath mint and duct tape your own raggedy shoes and be honest.
You demand respect for your social media rights, respect others. I’m ranting about this now, thanks to some BS I’ve seen off and on today. Oh and heard via phone and my lovely in-laws. Ranting about what my kids post or what I have. People who bitch about me bitching….people bitching about others. I’m just fed up with it all. Before someone points at me and tells me I’m doing the same thing, I’m saying it about my in-laws for one, and for two, it’s a ran about the whole universe doing it. The person who bitched me out, knows who they are and I don’t’ have to give a name. Because at least it was addressed.

I wish people had more compassion for each other. If we all stopped fighting and being arseholes, we could have a lot more peace. In the end, all we want is world peace. ;)

I leave you with this rant my friends and maybe a few things to reflect on. I know it’s got me thinking!

With love and cookies for all.....

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