I am a Survivor. With a big ol’ capital S. Why the big S? Because being a Survivor requires the acknowledgment of something stronger than just a name or description. It’s not who I am totally, but a big portion of my heart, soul and body. - Shani Kenny 2015

Monday, December 26, 2016

Baby I was born .....

..... this way! It's true, I was/am! :)

Having been away all weekend due to being sick, I had no idea that George Michael passed away. It's so sad! My thoughts and prayers go out to his loved ones and to those who loved him. It's a loss that creates so much heartache. A loss of life is harsh no matter who it is, if you knew them directly or as a fan. I've been a fan since I was a little girl. Music healed my heart in so many ways and distracted me from so much. 

I have to share this funny story with you all for a number of reasons. My BFF, Miss B. loved to sing when we were little. I was shy (I know, I know....you're saying WHAT? No way! It's true!), she was louder lol. She was bossy, and overly protective of me. Gosh I love her to this day. Anyhoo, She decided that she needed to sing in the front yard. She grabs the tape player (We're talking early 80's here) as we go out. She tells me to stand over in the corner of the yard by the driveway and when she tells me to, hit play. She's going to dance and sing for anyone watching. LMAO...I was too sit and be the DJ! ;) So I did of course, and she proceeded to sing loudly and obnoxiously! We both loved WHAM! and she was singing to "wake me up before you Go Go" as I clapped to the rhythm. It's one of my best memories and I can look back and laugh hysterically. But you know what? For a kid like me who was going through hell behind closed doors, having a BFF who would do anything to make me smile was like giving me gold. Music encouraged our friendship and in that moment, those guys gave us a memory we'll hold on to forever. We still talk about it! I tease her about her bossy side as kids, but as an adult I see it differently. She wanted the world to see me as she did, and she'd make damned sure they did. Oh man, I have so many stories about those times. But I'll leave them for now since I'm rambling lol.

With George Michaels passing there are those that are saying horrific things about his sexuality. Does his sexuality really define him? No, it doesn't define any of us. He didn't make a choice to be gay. To quote that awesome song, "I was born this way!" He was, and it was just apart of who he is.

So for those who are being so hateful, degrading and horrific, KARMA is a bitch and then some. You can say YOUR God is punishing him for his choices, is it YOUR God that has instilled such hatred in your heart? Is it YOUR God that tells you to ignore this message: Do unto others as you would have them do unto you? Because if you claim it is, I'm sorry friend I do believe you're a bit delusional. Regardless of your faith and your chosen religion, we're all human. We all bleed the same and breathe the same air. We are human, and we make mistakes. Take a moment to step back and think about it, would you want someone to hate you because something about you is different? I hope not! My mom taught my brother and I that everyone is different for a reason. To love others as they are. She taught us to be open minded and to be open to religion and different beliefs in general. I do, and I teach my kids that as well.

Now that I've shared my memories with you and my thoughts on his passing, I have just one more thing to say....

Hello my name is Shani. I'm a bit of a weirdo, a ninja master, zombie loving freak who believes in love, faith and good times. I'm a creative soul who lives to laugh and I cherish those in my life that are good to me. I haven't always been easy going, but I've learned a lot of things along the way and have helped me to let it go.  Oh and in case you didn't know, I'm Bisexual. If that alone makes you not like me, love me, care for me, tolerate me, then I'm sorry. Not sorry because of my sexuality. But sorry because you're missing out on a friendship/family member that is no different than before you knew. I was born this way, and I'm damn proud of it. I haven't always been as open about it, and that was my choice. Sometimes, it's just the right time to shout it to the world.

I wish you many blessings, love and cookies,